‘나의 담대함과 익숙함은 무엇인가?’
본문 관찰과 묵상
전쟁터 까지 달려온 다윗이 사람들에게 하는 말을 듣고 큰 형 엘리압이 교만하다고 정죄하였다. 사울은 다윗이 골리앗의 상대가 되지 않는다고 했다. 다윗은 사자와 곰이 양을 물어갈 때 끝까지 쫓아가 양을 구출하고 덤비는 사자나 곰을 죽이도록 하나님의 그들의 발톱에서 자신을 구원하셨듯이 하나님을 모욕하는 골리앗과 싸워도 하나님의 손이 골리앗에서 자신을 구원 할것이라 선포하였다.
QT를 통하여 듣는 주님의 음성
사울이 다윗의 담대함에 감동받아 골리앗과 싸울 것을 허락하고 자신의 군복을 입혔다. 다윗이 입어보고 익숙하지 않다고 거절하고 항상 자신이 익숙하게 사용하였던 물매와 돌 5개를 넣어가지고 골리앗 앞으로 나갔다. 다윗은 하나님을 믿는 믿음으로 하나님의 영광을 위하여 나갔다. 자신의 익숙한 무기를 가지고 나갔다. 나는 믿음으로, 내게 익숙한 은사를 가지고 악한 세력에 맞서 싸우는가? 다른 사람의 것을 이용하여 나가나?
결단과 적용
지난 30년 나는 대책없는 목회에 성령님이 감동하여 주시는 대로 순종하였다. 다민족교회의 비젼과 OICC 비젼을 말할 때 동료 목사들도 않된다고 하였다. 나의 무기는 말씀과 기도의 은사였다. 말씀과 기도로 30년을 살았다. 작은 열매지만 열매맺고 산다. 남은 기간도 나는 그렇게 익숙한대로 살리라!
‘What are my boldness and gift?’
I Sam. 17:28-40
Observation and meditation on the text
David’s oldest brother Eliab vehemently judged David that he was too proud dare to declare to fight against Goliath when he heard David spoke it to the people. When Saul called for David, the king underestimated that he was too young to fight against Goliath. Upon hearing from the king, David gave his testimony how he saved his father’s sheep when a lion or a bear took it from him until he could kill them because it was God who saved him from their paws. David boldly declared to the king that he could kill Goliath who despised the living God as he killed lion and bear because God would save him from Goliath’s hand too.
I hear the voice of the Lord through QT
Having been moved by David’s testimony, Saul dressed David with his own tunic with his armor, sword and helmet. However, David refused the king’s suggestions because he was not used to them. David took his sling in his hand with 5 stones from the stream as he used to use them before. David went against Goliath with his faith in God and for his glory. He equipped himself with his accustomed sling and stones. Do I fight against evil power by faith with God’s given gifts which are very familiarized to me? Or do I use someone else’s gifts?
Decisions and applications
For the last 30 years, I have obeyed the Lord as much as I am inspired by the Holy Spirit when I did not have any specific ways for my pastoral ministries.When I declared the vison for multi-ethnic Church as well as OICC even co-pastors denied its feasibility.However, I consistently carry on God’ vision as I am inspired by the Holy Spirit through the living words of God and prayers.My accustomed and familiarized weapons have been the gifts of the wisdom of the living word of God and prayers.I have lived with them for the last 30 years.And now I see the fruits of it even though it is very small.Therefore, I simply live for the rest of my tenure consistently with the living word of God and prayers.